Comic Relief

It's a sad day. Everyone hates me because of my love. Mam cried out when she stood too quick. Poor old back. Works so hard. But I know I did no wrong. I know she'll be alright. I know we'll go to heaven. I talk to angels still. I'm not lonely even when alone. I have so much work to do. Writing letters. Making vids. I sit quiet for five hours. I laugh for five seconds. A joke relieves the tension. If you don't laugh you'll cry. That's what they say. They're usually right. Sorry for my laugh. It wasn't at the situation here. Just silly vids on TikTok

Chameleons

Just wanna explain about these messages with Henny

What I said looks kinda gay but wasn't. No innuendo intended. What I wrote wasn't what I planned to say to him of my own accord. All I was doing is improvving in order to socialise. He said my sunshine gives life. So I said his words are seeds all over my page. I was just thinking of my TikTok page like a farmfield. I see now it could be mistaken for sexual innuendo. But that's not how I meant it

I thought he was feeling unappreciated. That's why I elaborated about the seeds to make him feel more noticed and appreciated. I didn't realise it might have a second innuendo meaning till after I posted it. Then I just hoped he wouldn't notice or focus on that meaning. As I don't normally. Not till I start speaking to someone. When I'm alone I just speak to heaven in virtuous ways. So I forget all about sin. Then when I speak to people I'm always surprised and confused when they start meaning different things than what I normally talk about with heaven

I never have any cruel or sexual intentions in my mind. The waitress bowled me over emotionally. And I looked up to heaven five minutes after leaving. Just surprised by how she had just acted and how it made me feel. But it was just reaction. I didn't go there intending to flirt and didn't intend going back to flirt either. I was just swept away by the situation. It was not premeditated

I never plan such things. I just respond to what's happening. Even the long love I was on about was only me responding to Stella's disinterest. Thinking it's why she was disinterested and was what I had to say to win her over. I didn't approach her with that intention in mind. I never have intentions like that in mind. All I want is a female companion. A life partner. Someone to raise kids with me. It's nothing to do with sex for me. I just play that part to try to make her happy. But maybe she just don't know the joy of celibacy. That is something I do intend to teach her. That is something I have planned.

I acted a bit gay with Henny but didn't mean to. What I said may look rather gay on paper but it was just words. In real life it's not the real me. I act gay sometimes in real life but again it's just an act. Many times people have mistaken me for gay or a thug because of how I act. Maybe Tupac was just acting tough as well like Jack Sparrow. But wasn't tough really and someone took it the wrong way and gunned him down

Easy mistake to make. If he is such a good actor and acts on the street instead of the stage someone easily could mistake him for a genuine threat and strike out like stingrays at Steve Irwin. Tupac tattooed Thug Life on his belly. It seemed so real. But maybe he was just a chameleon like me. Trying to fit in with a criminal world. I say this because to listen to his words he don't sound like a thug at all. He sounds sweet and religious like me. So I don't think it was the real him. I know he committed some petty crimes. But maybe he was just like a cop deep under cover who had to snort some drugs to stay hidden

Maybe Henny was just acting too. But in what way? Was he a good guy acting bad like me and Pac? Just to fit in with the gossers? Or a bad guy acting good just to trick me for the gossers? Or a good guy acting like a bad guy acting good? A double agent. I do not know. All I know is the way he acted last night was a gift of rejection sent by heaven that made me write this letter

Gift of Rejection

I was chatting to Henny but he embarrassed me by being silly when we was speaking of meeting. Effectively leaving me on my Jack Jones

After midnight I watched the second devotional vid of the day by Nona Jones. Her name tells me No not on na Jones I'm with heaven. She said when you feel abandoned and humiliated don't worry as heaven never leaves you. Then I noticed her book is called the Gift of Rejection. So Henny rejecting me was a gift. As it means he wasn't right for me as a business partner. Last night Jay told me of True Romance. So my natural response was to tell him about the Art of Seduction

On the Bible App home page of the day the cover for the vid of the day has Nona's book and the title looks like it says Art of Seduction

This sign is evidence heaven is with us. Jay that's the second public sign you've included in now. Heaven is smiling upon you. Also of note is Goldy's comment. It inspired my answer of true love or no love. The fact true love or no love relates to rejection is a sign. If the love between me and Henny is not true why love at all? A love like that just turns toxic so is not healthy. This shows the holy spirit inspired Jay's and Goldy's questions as well as my answers. So both of you should feel blessed thank heaven and keep walking the way of virtue. Heaven is pleased with you

I don't usually write about YouVersion signs that only happen the day before as you may think I'm tricking. But how could I make Henny reject me or Jay tell me of True Romance or Goldy ask me what heaven is saying? These things prove it's heaven's handiwork not mine

Underground

Alright so everyone is going crazy asking why I wrote about the Toy Chamber at 23:43. I said I dunno what the vision means. After reading the verses I saw it meant Spirit Prison. But at first it looked to me like. Well. Am I gonna have to say this? I don't wanna say it. But you know what I mean. I read about it. Child trafficking through the criminal underground. Made me shudder. Thought makes me shudder. Hate it. When I saw the vision I knew that's what it seemed to hint at. The dude seduced my queen. If he was into that maybe he was planning to corrupt her. Get her into it as well. I saw another vision today of T buying a pink car from a dealer then driving to a pool. He sat watching small children there through a window drinking booze. Then waded in to chase them with a wild look on his face. Then he was washing and trimming their hair in the chamber and put crowns on their heads. A boy and a girl. It could be like his demon self working for Satan to stop their souls incarnating. Or it could be the other thing. I don't know. I didn't know if that's what the first vision meant either and didn't wanna say it. So I said you guys be the judges. I knew it could mean other things. Then the verses told me it was about blocking the birth of the heavenly souls. The last scene of today's vision showed me T reading this letter alone hungover listening to slow music with dimmed lights at home. Obviously it's difficult for me to point fingers at folks after my track record. But back then I had no clue about any of it. I read about it years later and don't wanna read about it again quite frankly. But that's what the vision showed me so that's what I had to say. I know what it is but don't wanna know what it is. It's sin. Demonic. Unholy. A ticket to rebirth in the lower realms. Even to the lowest realm. Even the name of that lowest realm feels wrong to say right now. Let me speak no more of it. Amen

Spirit Prison

Yesterday's chapter said "You would surely not let a thief break into your home if you knew when the thief was coming. So always be ready [by repenting for your sins]! You don't know when the Son of Man will come [to punish you for your sins]."

If that was T's house I saw in the vision it means Jesus was able to visit there like a thief without T even knowing

Today's verse says "All of us have sinned and fallen short of godlike perfection. That means we don't deserve to go to heaven. Even so heaven treats us much better than we deserve. It says if we believe in Jesus it will set us free from the chains and prisons of our sins and let us go to heaven when we die."

These verses coincide with the vision for a reason. It's a message from heaven for T. You have sinned by seducing El's first chosen queen and inadvertently stealing or jailing the souls of the royal fam kids so they can't be reborn on earth. Perhaps our kids would visit Morocco. Or you would live there with Stella effectively trapping their spirits there. In which case the city you were in would be their metaphysical jail. Likewise the goss group smearing my rep to everyone new keeps my soul jailed. Yet they and you will be forgiven if you both repent. Tell the queen to sin no more and follow her destiny

I don't wanna write you this. I'd rather forget you both and just marry Elly. I write this just because it's my job. Heaven shows me visions. I walk the holy way. I gotta tell you what I see to help you find the way to heaven. If I don't I'll get partial blame for any sins you commit in future. Telling you like this absolves me of blame

Toy Chamber

Was just scrolling through my TikTok. Saw a candy for sale truck. World around me fizzed away. Replaced by a vision world. There I saw a letter T in the sky in fire at night above the van. Under the truck the ground turned to glass. I could see through. There was a lavish room full of cushions with kids' toys and a throne. A globe on the floor read mafia. Like international organised crime. That was the next vid TikTok showed me. By Ndotz yeah. Except Ndotz weren't dancing there. Was that Tony guy from the dream. The one you ugged. But just him. On his own. The globe zoomed in and Morocco was glowing orange on it. The vision fizzed to a busy bazaar. T was walking through then vanished like a ghost. The vision morphed back to the toy room underground then. A white staircase led down to it and the door was bolted with electric locks. Under the room a shimmering stairway led further down to the river styx where souls go chained to wait rebirth. T couldn't see that level though. Dunno what this vision means. You guys be the judges

Royal Oak

Was just scrolling TikTok vids. Found one called Royal Oak with blue lights and saw a vision. A sudden intense daydream. There was a tree in a palace garden. Our family tree. Us our kids grandkids and descendants. Each branch had a crown. Your soul was in the tree. A portal opened in the ground. Leading down to earth from heaven. A black-clad man called to you through it. Your spirit came out of the tree went through the portal and hugged him in a room with blue neon lights. When the portal closed half the tree withered and half the crowns fell to the ground crumbling to dust. I scrolled to the next vid and saw the name Tomas. The vision world appeared again and the name was written in the sky in flames. Or was it Tony? I saw bleach blond hair in the next vid and that coloured his hair the same in the vision. It seems you went back to him. Or to someone else. Back to your old ways either way instead of uniting with me in holy matrimony to make the tree grow. Were you in a room with blue lights? You must not go back or the crown and your place in heaven will slip farther away from you. Your crown has already been knocked off but not yet taken away. So do not visit any more lovers. Abandon those lustful sinful ways and devote yourself to me today for three years till engagement day. Neither of us should sleep with anyone else during that time or after if you give me your hand. You just ignore me and do what you want and sleep with anyone and go wherever and I'm sick of it. You disgust me. All you do is lie and threaten me and stab me in the back no matter how nice I am to you. I'll be glad to give your crown to someone else. Anyone who treats me right. Anyone who has the courage to stand by me instead of the weak ass pathetic little gossers who spread nothing but the warped stagnant filth clogging up their own depraved minds. You're so scared of them turning against you when really the only thing you should be afraid of is heaven and not doing what heaven says and heaven says have no fear and stand by me